I finished that article, and for the first time in a few years it felt GREAT!! I am so very proud of the article, its one of my best I think. There seems to be a maturity to my writing that was not there before. I think its because of my experiences in the last 9 years, and how much I have changed from what I was before. I look back over the past 5 years and am amazed at how different I am now, from what I was in June 2000. Most of these changes have been for the good and I believe I am a much better person than I have ever been. As a slave, I have reached a place where my need to please, serve and such are very strong and they come naturally again. I do not have to force them, or coerce myself or anything, it just comes on its own. I missed that a great deal, but was terrified to do it again. Now, I'm not afraid and my desires are stronger than they were before.
I know I still have issues and areas that need work, but I know I will make it and some day those too will be gone.
